Sometimes it's just so hard to ignore it, you know? It's really hard. Even though I want to I just can't, cause it's just... it hurts. Somewhat.
Why was that necessary? Really? Why? I know no bad feelings were involved and stuff but it really...
Just why?
I want to get over this, I really do but somehow I think I'll never be able to. I hate when I feel like that. I want to. I just...
I mean, at some level I am over it. I really am, but still I can't help but... Feeling this jealous right now. Wishing him dead and that you forget every memory of him.
At the same time I am so happy for you, that you..
I'm just really happy for you.
I want to cry. Haha. I feel so pathetic, or whatever you call it. But I really do want to cry. Just... cry and get over it. But it won't help. Even if I cry, it didn't help earlier why would it help now?
Exactly.
I just... wish there was some way. For me that is. Cause it's all about me this time, haha. So selfcentered huh? But it really is all about me. Why can't I just get over you? Why? I really... need to. I have to.
I actually thought you were getting over him when you didn't talk as much about him, you know? I was happy. Haha. But... yeah. Maybe you just didn't want to talk to me about it, seeing how you know I don't... like it? It was nice of you. Really nice... Tack.
I just... Even though if you'd get over him... it wouldn't help me. What needs to be done is me getting over you.
How do I do that? I don't know how... I really don't. Help me... or something? I want to... get over you. I think... I think I do. I don't know..