I'll rant. If you won't want to read, don't read.
Today was somewhat OK. I skipped swedish class cause I just really couldn't handle it. I woke up at 7-ish and I was... dead. It felt like it anyway. I could barely move without feeling pain somewhere. So I stayed at home and did nothing. Absolutely nothing. Around 4 I went downtown and got something for Kristi and then japaense. You know, nothing too... hard. But still I'm so tired. And so stressed. And still shaking.
I cried when I got home today. I was looking forward to writing with P but she couldn't due to school work and that just... was it, you know? I don't blame anyone really it just... the "only" joy, or whatever I could call it, wouldn't happen and I just... had a break down. Really. It was... I don't know. But I think I needed it. Everything is just happening SO FAST and everything at once.
I'll totally not make the history test tomorrow.
Haha. It could be just me but I think she's getting over him somewhat. I'm so happy. XD; Haha. It's not like I have "hope" or anything it's just... I don't know. Relieving? XD; Or maybe it's me dealing with jealousy in a better way? I dunno. It feels so nice that she knows too though. XD; I know it's weird, well it prolly sounds weird. But I love the fact that she knows about it... I do.
But god how I wish I could kill him. Or well, make her forget about him. ^o^ that works even better. It's weird though, this feeling. XD; I mean. It's just... I dunno. I'd never. I CAN NEVER IMAGINE doing anything ew no. NO. EW. No. >_<; .. But I just.. gah. It's complicated. Kisu dake desu?
Anyway. I feel really down today. I don't know why really but I do... Kristi managed to cheer me up some though. Thanks. <3~*