I really wish I could get over this whole thing, but I can't. I mean, it's not like if things will change just because I hold on to it. Things are different and that's just how they will be from now on, I guess.
Not even a hug anymore, that hurts. Pretty damn much. But still that "I love you" just a month ago... I can hold on to that forever. It's just... sometimes I doubt that things will ever go as ... we, as I hope. As I ... wish.
I'm waiting, you know. I'm waiting... Days pass by slowly, but I still... I wait for you. I'll keep on waiting until three years have passed. I will probably go to Gbg and study in a year or something, but that won't make things worse, just better. ^_^
Watashi ga itsumo matteiru kara...
It's just me who demand too much, I know that. I demand ALOT... and still I get nothing. Haha. I shouldn't demand antyhing at all...
When I don't get attention I feel like if I'm forgotten, when no one tells me they like me, I feel hated.
When you don't even hug me... I don't know. I feel so far away from you. You'll always be my sister, you know. Always... no matter what you say.
You're the only person who I've gotten this close with, the only person I would, seriously, die for. Kill for. I just really hope things don't go that far... heh. Somehow I gave up my dreams so that I wouldn't lose you, you know.
I just wish I wasn't alone in this relation, I wish I knew where you stand, but I don't. We're so much more than friends, sisters... soulmates.
You have said you would be able to forget and move on just like that. That makes me cry... am I the only one actually wanting to keep this relationship going?
I wouldn't be able to move on if I'd ever lose you...
Don't you dare leave me.