I second Kristi's questions. Did he like kids? Carols? ... I don't know. But I think he liked kids, he seemed like that kind of person. Hell, he was a kid. Even in his 30's he was a kid. Damn... I miss him. I never met him, but damn I miss him a lot. Why did he die? Suicide? No! I won't believe that, EVER. It was an accident... it could happen to everyone. Maybe not in the same way, but still. Today I thought about him alot. He would be 40 today... 40 years old, but something tells me he sure wouldn't look like it. His looks will/would forever look like a teenager... just having fun. Smiling his silly smiles and just... being wonderful as he was. "Sing Goodbye..." Yes, I cried today. Actually I did... foolish? Perhaps, but he means a lot to me. That's it.
I could go on ranting about him forever... but instead;
Happy 40th Birthday, Hide. I love you.