"we've never been so alone" well, thank you. i don't know what's wrong with me. i should just smile and be happy for life, shouldn't I? I mean, hey. I have a family, i have money, i have a wonderful girlfriend and my lovely friends. right? im happy and life is wonderful. that's what all of you say anyhow. my life is so damn perfect and i'm such a perfect and happy fuckin person, right? fuck you.
what the hell do you know about me, huh? fine, you know me. so what? you have no fucking idea of how i feel and if my life really is that perfect as you think. bah. fuck you. also, it's nice to know how true your words really were, huh? nice. really nice.
i saw audition today. a really freaky movie, just as freaky and sick as suicide club. just... this one made me think. i mean, she had a terrible childhood, i mean so did i. what if i turn out to be that kind of psycho too? XD would be kinda hilarious. would be so typical of me. if i ended up like that. i dunno. anyhow, it made me think of my lovely childhood and i got this weird... attack of guilt and fucked up things again. i swear, im so damn happy. i swear. my life is the ideal teenage life. of course. fuck you and your damn thoughts about me and my life. fuck it.
I need alcohol and my pills.