Huh? Right. I just cut my fucking self up, just to get attention and just to make everyone feel so damn sorry for me. "stupid lesbian" go to hell. First of all, I'm not homosexual, I'm bisexual. Got that Sara? Second, u know. I'm not ashamed of it. You do not fall inlove with the gender, you fall inlove with the personality. And now if that personality belongs to a girl, then fine. But I'm nothing like you. Writing porn-stories about how I have sex with Hugh Jackman or Orlando Bloom, you know. Nor am I obsessed with Liv Tyler and have layouts of her all over the place, and write that she's hot, but then thinks that "girlxgirl" is wrong and disgusting. You need help.
But yes, I do cut myself. And it's nothing that I'm proud of. But I'm not ashamed of that either. Why do I do it? Because I want to escape the pain, okay? You get it? The pain where you were one of those who caused it. But then again, You live on your mommy and will probably move out when you're done suckin' on the thumb when you sleep, right? So when you're 35 perhaps? I don't know. I don't give a damn about it either.
Then again, yes I cut myself. You got a problem with that? You think it's annoying? Huh? You think it's pathetic? Well try to walk one day in my shoes and having the razor/knife before you with the thoughts "If I do it I know I will think of other stuff and the pain will go away." Then let's see if you still think it's pathetic.
And btw, do you have any idea of how great it is to have a girlfriend? Knowing that she knows what's good for you and that she knows how to satisfy you. You know, I don't have to lay down in my bed thinking of old men like "WOLVERINE" and touch myself, you know? I'm fine without that.
And hey, just for your information. I do not cut myself up. I cut my wrists, I cut my neck once... chest.. hm.. yeah, leg. But it's not like I'm cutting myself all over the place. I mean, hello. That would be suicide and not even *I* commit suicide by bathing in blood. No, I use pills if I want to die. Which I don't so fuck off. Too bad for you huh?
Okay. I guess I needed to say that. Pff. And now it feels somewhat better, still have some things tho. I wished I could make u laugh too. I'm pathetique ain't I? ^^; Well... damn u goin offline again it just... i dont know. i didnt want you to go, but i know you had to. however, yes i know. but i'm trying, really i am. i won't lose you again, that's it... i won't. so there... just... i remember. u know? "Dammit, ure making me laugh." you said. it was a few years ago though, but still. it felt great tho.. didn't say it back then, but it made me really happy when u told me that. oh well... i'm working on it... you know... i never really meant to hurt you, i love you too much to ever do such a thing. I love you Piing.